Inside every older person is a younger person -- wondering what the hell happened!

Quote of the day....JUST LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT DAMMIT!

So there is a big spanish exam today..YIPEEE!....yeah right . I'm sorry that I got you sick James...

A male gynecologist is like an auto mechanic who never owned a
car.

To all you ladies out there you know what I mean! It's scary going to these things.....You never know what the other person is thinking....

What is the point? Why? I try so hard, I do the things I'm supposed to and nothing. What do I get out of it? Nothing, nothing but disappointment. No pats on the back, nothing..Al that is left is tears and pain.

I can't help but wonder if there is meaning, meaning of hard work. Are there any rewards? If life begins in disapointment, does it end in disapointment? Are the rewards of life right there within ones grasp that you don't even have to search in the shadows? Is all this hard work worth the stress?

If going to college only brings you money...is stress really worth it? I mean yeah money buys you nice things, but do we really need nice things to begin with? I mean the comodities that we have now weren't even invented back in the day and people were happy without them..Do we really need nice houses? MONEY IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END OF STRESS FOR MOST PEOPLE...i DON'T WANT IT TO BE THERE TAUNTING ME IN THE SHAWDOWS CRYING OUT TO ME INTO DEPRESSION AND EVENTUALLY DEATH!

I know that i am being very dramatic right now, but this is how I feel and this is what I am thinking right now....WHAT DO i DO?

awh...I turned so red today when my teacher told the people in the classroom that I should volunteer to be a T.A. next year....and I was like um I got an F on the last exam that we took. And he's like oh, are you Angelica?

And I think that he totally droped the idea that I should be a T.A. next year. HA HA that was funny.

So funny moments include:
*Kim's yeast are fuzzy* (inside joke)
*The banana oil experiment for O-chem should never be sniffled* (I learned this the hard way.....my nostril burned for like two hours.)
*James is the adopted father of my yeast!*
*Alien dogs can be drawn from reefs* (?.....long boring story)

Currently feeling: awake

I refuse to think of them as chin hairs. I think of them as stray eyebrows!

Spanish exam tomorrow, ugh...I hope I do better than I have on the previous exams. I've been studying how to turn verbs into past tense. You know, its funny, I don't remember learning english being this hard. Oh yeah, that's because they didn't try to jam a whole new vocabulary into 30 weeks!

Currently feeling: busy

A man's got to do what a man's got to do. A woman must do what he can't.

I oficially hate Valentines Day. It's just a stupid day where people who have boyfriends or grilfriends can celebrate. yes, I know I have a boyfriend, but I cannot see him on that day....so I oficially do NOT want to celebrate this day!

Sorry if you feel as though I am just being mean, but this is how I feel, I do not want to celebrate a day that is suppose to bring closeness together, if I cannot be close to the one I love.

I especially do not want to celebrate V-day because James and I are having some difficulty in our relationship. I do not know the meaning of this difficulty yet, because it is being unraveled though the days. I just hope that it is nothing bad.

Oh man, I am so pissed off right now. I don't know what to do so I am just writing over and over anything that comes to mind, I don't know if it makes sense or not. I just know that I am mad and I don't know what to do. Why am I mad? I don't know.. I have no clue. No idea what-so-ever. Nothing! I just know that I am mad and I want to be alone.

The Day before Valentine's Day! Sweetie came by to surprise me at my work. I feel soo bad sometimes, because it seems like every time he does somethig to surprise me, my family always interferes in some way. I'm sorry dear. I wish I could tell them that I am busy, but I cannot do that to them because well, they are my family and they will always be there for me. I love you, and I thank you for everything that you have done for me. MUAH!

Awh, I just found this ole message in my e-mail! I smiled after reading this, it reminded me of this particular moment. AWH! I love you DEAR!

Helloooo =)
>
>don't have much time, just wanted to send ya an email saying hi and
>that i miss u!
>
>your faraway lobster,
>clamp clamp

Clamp Clamp back to ya!

Hummm...so James kicked a car today and kept screamming out SLUT to Tiff.!!!

I don't know why these two insist on screaming out such stuff in public. Everybody stares at them like they are crazy and FUCKING GOOFY! .

Note to self: DO NOT TELL JAMES THAT OUR YEAST PROGENY ARE DEAD! (I don't get yeast support from the government if he tells them that my children are dead) HA-HA

So yeah, I was totally confused about what my Chem professor said:

"This compound is known as Propyl-People-Ether1
Supposedly the joke came from the hit song of Purple People Eaters! I derno....W/E....as long as he doesn't expect us to know about this on the exam, I should live through this upcoming exam!

Currently feeling: crazy

Ha Ha I just rembered that James told me that he looked at another girls ass yesterday He said thatI deserved it, but it's not like I say I so checked out that guys ass when he angers me! I think he hates me. -sike- It's okay, I know the girl, she would have kicked his ass if she knew he did anything purposely to hurt me Okay got to go to biology lab NO fun, no fun at all.

James: i just had a craving for smothered burrito
[20:10] James: omg
[20:10] James: wtf
[20:10] James: im not even hungry
[20:10] Gelli: are you pregnant?
[20:10] Gelli: spf,.....dammt
[20:10] James: sorry
[20:10] Gelli i didn't mean to do that
[20:10] James: we weren't careful enoguyh
[20:11] Gelli: dammit
[20:11] James: now you're stuck to me forever
[20:11] Gelli: fucking child support now
[20:11] Gelli: im fighting you in the courts for my yeast
[20:12] James: you can have the yeast
[20:17] gelli: awh i see how it is you aren't even going to put up a fight for our children
[20:17] gelli: !
[20:19] james: yeah.. children that i didn't even know i had until a few days before they died!
[20:25] gelli: ha ha
[20:25] gelli: what about the ones you are preggie with now?
[20:25] gelli: you just ditched them u know
[20:27] James: im not preggie with yeast!
[20:31] GElli: oh what are you preggie with then?
[20:32] James: ummm
[20:32] James: little gooslings!
[20:32] Jampes: lol
[20:33] gelli: awh is there going to be an ugly duckling?
[20:33] James: nope
[20:33] James: they're all gonna be hot

Success is in the air. I know that a girl has got a lot to do, but I am doing it! I am succeeding, eventhough I was down for a while. I know I can do it, I can do anything, I just need to put a little more confidence in myself. I realized this from the very special person in my life. I am thankful everyday that you are in my life.

MUAH!

Every time I close the door on reality it comes in through the windows.........

The weekend brought much satisfaction and happiness to my life. The reality that I am trying to hide from, did not seem so bad this weekend. I approached the things I was trying to hide from through a different angle. I feel as though right now, this reality is hitting a new high, although I am still a bit afraid of it, I will not let it hide me from a real life.

I know that things can get tough every now and then, and sometimes it feels as though it happens more often then it should. I have learned that it is better to try a new angle to deal with things, than it would just to give up on it. Accomplishment is the key to success, even if the accomplishment is a small step or satisfaction.

Nothing, and I mean NOTHING should make you feel like you should give up on life, especially living life.

God would never give you anything to deal with, if he knew you couldn't handle it.

Studying pays off, even if it is grueling and painful to do sometimes. Now, I don't want to get my hopes up about the results, but I studied.....I studied hard.....and I even helped some fellow students.....I'm sooo gonna Ace this exam. Now for the next exam, I will have to think about that one, and study even harder for that exam...(Genetics)......

As for the exam and the quiz I have tomorrow, I don't know what I will do, I feel as though the Music exam will not be that hard, but the spanish quizes, exams always kill me. I know that it is my native language, but I am just not very good at the writing portion.....gramatically.

OH WELL........GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF THOSE WHO FACE PROBLEMS TODAY, TOMORROW, OR AT ANYTIME IN THEIR LIFE. YOU CAN DO IT!

Today I get to climb up all kinds of stairs to listen to some guy play the bells..... I'm afraid of heights.......

Hey all, who read my tab earlier this week and was wondering what grade I got on that exam.......O-Chem........A! Yeah I know that Genetics is probably the easier class of the two, but it just so happens that I am doing better in the harder class....wtf?

So,.......I would hate to drive anybody crazy......but GUESS WHAT!!!
I get to go to the Brittany Spears Concert with James.....! He surprised me with the tickets today after class during breakfast.

James: if I show you something, you have to promise not to scream......
Gelli: Ummm....okay, I promise!........
James: *Pulls out of coat pocket and hands to Gelli*
Gelli: What's this?......*Reads (out loud) MTV Presents Britney Spears*.........*SCREAMS*.......wher'd you get this....*Starts blushing*
James: Hey shhh....you said you wouldn't yell!

ME SOOOO HAPPY!